Anonymous postings on Family July 1997 to July 2001

m e m o r y s e l f e x h i b i t s

gone memory, sadness and happiness likeness of two or more connected by a thread of humour where laughter leads to tears and back again and again back further and further beyond the womb home new york away from gestapo If we live in honor then we will die only to arise again All--- gay nothing being able to look aside and stand for those you care for When the rooster crows at the break of dawn, you'll be there, but I'll be gone... Ain't no use in putting out the light, babe. It don't matter anymore. My mother, the one and only in my life. Without her I am just a leaf blowing in the wind. home Roots people that know how to hurt you better than anyone but offer u what no-one else will - unconditional love Shooting fireworks across the fields late on the night of the fourth of july. Sending sparks and good karma into the stratosphere. Queen Elizabeth is dead. Our last and best hope for the future a new beginning crap and more crap shit badnews a man with three lives pain like a negated clock pride numb A memory. Do i have abandonment issues? My favorite memory is a scar. roots home its good to have one otherwise you can make one compassion dustbunnies (Who are you? This is a truly beautiful website!) My grandmothers speak through me..they are deep iside and I feel them all the time. At night I hear their whispering. a world without family is not a world heartache they cannot leave I am with my family 32132132 womb-like security love has their time and place but you are one with the world the one will not reject you past future support unconditional love not bad .... kindness...complacency...shelter...comfort... respect...warmth...happiness...pride one A collective of individuals united by a common bond. family is the construct of existance, the heierarchy with out rank that determines your life and contributes to the life (lives) you and another create, woven together through love and MEMORY I'm a jew too hola espero que todo salga bien yourself who we must understanding even any situation. who we must understanding even any situation. A protective cirlce its a blessing to even have one Family. La famille. La familia. Strange, how it's always feminine in other languages. Feminine, to me, means beautiful. Precious. Holy. Anyone with a family like that can wish for nothing better. I can wish though. loved it made me call my fater... sitting around the christmas eve table, i was quite young and felt warm with too much of the seven fish dishes in my belly. jokes in the familiar language i didn't understand, the wine circles staining the white tablecloth, the smell of peroni cigars in my my uncle frank's sweater––i was a part of this bigger whole and everything was all right. inside out outside in related to the decoy's charming thought memrable all orphans discover gems in one another something I wish I cared for more fernando gina anita caio pedro chico fabio root why me i dont know maybe because im a child? devistation but release is something always red Love I cannot escape. times when I near my center. when I was small my father was so big he could stretch his arms all the way around us; my two brothers, my mother, and me. security this pure is meant only for the young. the old don't believe it. the dying can't remember. unity love and embarrassment love yes family dark with hope. light. your father seems nice I live for my family I live for the humanity in all it´s variety and complexity. I live for me. history fading away as my memories do If I knew him not I know him now. life the people you were brought into this world with sanctuary Hi, I am Troy. BikeRider84@excite.com my family is my clan, my family pride as a coven of warriors. we fight for truth, justice, and a good beer. see my sword? it has the taint of blood and whiskey upon it. see my reflection? it is the mirror image of love and revenge. remember my words. the man/woman/kitty in the mirror is your soul.... strength The ones to count on when everyone else has failed. care plumb Many a war is waged For the sake of beauty, Some glittering prize, or The mere reflection thereof. I for one shall strive For all that remains, being Endless possibilities -- Content, I strive for nothing. corrente@samm.mail.net the context of our maturing or lack thereof a group of people that spoiled each other by all means every thougt never said is just another dream the key the ties that bind us live Christmas time....what a fuckin ripp off! All it is is a gathering of family and friends to exchange gifts. It meaning is totally materilistic. For consumer driven reasons. Family is just a lame exscuse for pplz who r hate each other and back stab each other every oppertunitie they get. Most who only show up every christman death and birth. has everyone forgotton the meaning tof christmas. Has everyone forgotten that its just a birthday for holy man. It hasn`t been that way in so long. Instead athesist celibrate just for the gifts. So what does it mean to get together. A paradox: Fictional love for the unlovable. Synthetic even. A product of our being to satiate the demands of an unloving society. Or a product of society to satiate our hunger for love. hiding hiding a pod, a provider, a unit blood, I dont kno of a loving family, all i kno is a weight benth tied to my feet. your family is your family no way around it they dont know you because you dont let them struggle and love struggle and love me breaks the heart it builds. But family also builds the individual, and it is the individual who must repair the heart. obligation, pressure, prison, refuge. they don't know me. your closeness to people rightiousness It has been said that family is nothing but a group of people who love and care for one another deeply. I have said "Thats horse shit" i have no thoughts on this. whay can i say broken concepts of what was never perfect that which is eludes us so very slightly or perhaps the illusion begins with them and not us. closest connection you have to this world other than yourself and she re start in a very low budget sister seeking sex with father and mom you i hate my family,i dont love them at all,i wish they would die so i could have their possessions, and then im scared because i dont think im thinking right, and i think i must be an evil person and i think i could never love anyone because im too selfish and nobody could possibily ever love me, but thats just the way i feel about them ccbvcbv ghghdghd poeple I love dearly. strangers with genes similar to yours Nunca vivi nada asi once again I am moved. Kbvibe@hotmail.com home, child in the bathtub, the way he looks in jammies lost, distant,nonexistant "Yet even in the lonliness of the canyon I knew there were others like me who had brothers they did not understand but wanted to help. We are probably those referred to as "our brothers' keepers," possessed of one of the oldest and possibly one of the most futile and certainly one of the most haunting of instincts. It will not let us go." --Norman Maclean, A River Runs Through it Nude Began Agony mend Run very pecky holding the pain and gratitude of the past while living and thriving in the present no puedo creer en la familia, sólo soy capaz de ver personas que me causan admiración o no... me disgusta que lo que no me causan admiración utilicen conmigo un trato de cercanía, cuando por el contrario yo me siento a años luz de ellos life wouldn't be life with out my family how confusing it would be not to have been with them from birth onward it can be a puzzeling thought Blood family is a nuiscance: Life is much better is you choose your own family. The ones who an make and breake u. The ones who can halt and move u. The ones who can hurt and help u. The ones who break, halt, and hurt me. Blood is thin w/ my biological parents and family. My Blood dont run no thicker w/ those who r closest to me. W/ my friends and emenmies, they are stronger than boilogical family Very moving.. forgive us all The poeple who surround you on a regular basis related by blood... even when you've been embalmed cgvkjti a chance of redemption, a new word a BRAND NEW life gained a cloak a smell a house the home Like a bowel movement; sometimes a comfort, sometimes not. the room in which i am love loyalty so much chaos and greed what ties us a name? moral root, a carrier, a net of collective conciousness made me smaller than i ever dreamed to be. I'm sorry. love. tight-knit, trust, perfect, closer, fragile help me! picou13@hotmail.com happiness They died. So will you. I am not afraid, nor should you. family rouct Family is made of unconditional and blind love. Family is made of friendships beyond possible boundaries. Family is not Blood. Family is not Flesh. Family is Key. yes this is really sad Love, Refuge more than three loved mostly always around in some way helpful my backbone always loving no matter what, being too scared to lose them... holding onto memories of those lost to me through whatever means... but i will always love them and remember the love they had for me 5 love love together the people we love, be they kin or not supression, a denial of self, to fit. for the ske of others, deny your insides a illusionary bond between two animals. strength all together seperate prision and salvation If you beleive what evryone says about their family, then you beleive that almost everyone is mentally warped. An awful lot of people see they're family (especially parents) as being sick in the mind. I don't think that many people can be insane. kool forgiveness splendid chaps dedicated to holidays in the sun and ignoring children poopnuts a group of beings that have no idea why they belong they just do shit Superficial security goodness you choose your friends not your family Beautiful composure!! in my creed, i have no family. and to my creed my family is my sword. my family is my sincerity. my family is me and who i am. i am my family. Forever love forever life forever god forever strife as though I may wish you may depart for the life I lead is far apart abnd through the hall the empty shell and the quiver of your shivering hell cannot continue forrver lost in the anguish of my father lost my mother gone taken away god has spoken yesterday with that in mind and all glory past all the things said and all the laughs laughed and in the moon and in the shroud without reason and only coward strenth be up strength be within for the life I lead is growing thin... -kenny "thefalseone@yahoo.com" r- 00' I hate my fucking family for the fucked up things they have done to me. At the same time I love them because there my family. Perfection is not the beginning, it is the end. aint got any that which you do not chose, but which is given to you for a reason. ... in happiness you will find sarrow ties, dresses too the cradle the care the challenge the chaos the crypt unity, love and respect People who speak and understand fluent English What's this? why the name is hell... I don't understand... I'm a brazilian girl, My family? I have father, mother, 2 daugthers, a cat, a dog, and my turtle died yesterday...I cry, but aren't because it die...I'm not happy...and cry alone in my bedroon... at night in my bed on darkness... I can sing to not remenber but ...I always remember and cry...alone and thing about my bad life...the hemp...my parents...money...future...where's the love? fuck the love... all...or nothing... I don't know they realize how much it takes so they are decay I'm a maggot Um I was in a penitenciary till the time they have paid my dues. It was hard and really bone-breaking, it slew me down but my muscles build up every night. The day of the fresh air! Welcome! But a new Threat, this time a larger institution. I will take it! My sentence was done I'm a freeman to be taken in again. Atleast they gave me freedom. time lnx prision La vida en familia es lo más importante. As my wife says. my mother was raped by a black man who was on crack. i was abused by my mother. my sister was murdered by a neighbor. nothing Shackles of flesh from which one cannot escape. Is a bind a harness a support. comlete liberty pattern of genes that spiral from the strongest and original. Communication and seperation. family is everything love and laughter abundant future Oh, God, I cannot live without my family. How am I supposed to go away? I liked it, It was well put together, suggestive and heavy with a feeling of nostalgia... the whole world direction : loyalty : love : peace : home indefinite definement home Mister choose its. Nice to know one. I can't stop her. I'll begin at noon. Travelling alone tonight. Wonder what's got in. Tell them I love. Chris knows now. excepting them for who they are and loving them just because they are your family sacrificing what you need to so they may prosper and live happily understanding them even when you don't want to even try no A way to attain dreams of incest Very captivating. UR FAMILY IS PRETTY COOL ¾î ÀÌ°Ô¹¹¾ß... Congratulation for what I saw. that what builds the self family is people who are nice to you so they wont see their genes go to waste Amir ugh stress+overdraft-social life love You didn't choose them, but in a way, they chose you. Need them when you're young, resent them when you think you've grown, and miss them when they're gone, knowing that they aren't coming back. But in a way, they never leave. love you do you? the great coupland once said, "a group of people god, blindfolded, picked out from the whitepages" loving relationships are what family give center, grounding, anchor, chained souls; going alone into an endless wood Love constant. the only constant thing in your life. precious. respect them for how they differ from you, what they have taught you good and bad. so many people complain. we must learn to forgive. the most important thing in my life... waste of time money patience ♥♥♥♥ Tombstones and Old Photographs an eternal link from many lifetimes ago and also in the future of the metaphysical realm close ones so precious, but many fail to see until they are gone... together happiness takes up space Berklee geeks split, angry, alone, untied, united history cocoon. cocoon. something seeming farther than it is this how are they now, back in hungary. maybe better, maybe worse. i miss them. maybe i can get them here sooner or later. the one great connection throughout all humanity My family is so strange, I love them much but they hate me so. Sometimes I can feel their pain, the pain of having to have me around. I feel so unwanted, rejected, a mistake. Is this all the result of just one love affair? people i never want to become choice those of us who are lucky to have one family is a blood link to those of us who are lucky enough to create one family is those you have a trusting and symbiotic relationship with. helping eavh other. loving each other and knowing each other, knowledge and envelopment -S.C love and hate hell love Nothing I can give a definition of. I can't remember them. chaos no more home a link -a treasure chest for some, pandoras box for others HOW BADLY DO YOU WANT A FAMILY? WHAT ARE YOU PREPARED TO DO ABOUT IT? Nothing equals. Always the pull and the stretch of the blood towards the calling of mother, the fall to catch the ball thrown by father, the ears pulled until they are like umbrellas to catch the rain of each sibling word, to close, as a cane to dance with while singing a song that, once heard, continues bringing it's food to you at your own funeral. a connection of one to a group or another one together for a purpose.... --lee jarett belback (eelcasio@hotmail.com) If only our tributes could do them justice. If only. trust, love, warmth, bonds, freedom, care, and worry I couldn't begin to even tell you what that is. Family I've never known or care to. I'm from Greece and that's all I really know. koo koo knuckles all is lay, only exist the darkness everyone says I'll end up like my mother no matter what I do. Either everyone is wrong or the cruel misguided hand of fate is pushing me on to a path that I wish not to venture... God! I really don't want to be her télen is meleg otthon emberek, akik között egyedül is lehet lenni (jól) unconditional unrelenting under appreciated a solid bond a secure feeling happiness difficulty good and bad but much love no fearful, loving, nolstalga. love nubes, nubes reflejadas en un río une confusion d'images simplistes pour s'expliquer le passé et supporter sa propre vie. a confusion of very simple images in order to explain the past to myself and try to handle my own life OZO\ my whole life revolves around spiting my family and doing everything they said i never would be able too wreckless NO COMMENT! i understand security Family is the people that are there for you wherever you call home. sweet those of whom you can always rely of which i was born through not of neccessary torments The family in the passion of the true... In the search of angels i begin for my family I LOVE'EM Family? i don't have a family, not a real one in some years it will become nothing, only my parents... I'll marry, I'll make other 'family' My sister will marry, She'll make other 'family' My parents will die... they'll go with their REAL family... the deads Family: The first community Family: The first hell Family: The first heaven Family: The last place to hide obligated love yo mama i don't know. they don't know me. there is nothing there. even better.family=what ever you want it to be. friends are family to me. confusion, worry, regret, insanity Ma fily ehh www.wtf.com i like my family but i´m tired of life and want to die Who are you? wilddog45@earthlink.net work harder for mine again thank you lafatain@hotmail.com pain People you love and are closest to. A major influence on your life good or bad. Peace and tranquility. solitude and lonliness nice people but i can't live with them not too long anyway. a cage People who are suppossed to be close to you, but never agree with you, never listen to a word you say...never give a shit what you think Regret extension of the self bleed I think I'm just waiting to die. I wonder how long this is going to take? la famila es.......la maximo nothing haven pain everything happiness connection continuity torn apart. never around. i am lonely. ? the bond that ties .....they are nothing i am their shadow following what THEY want... they say they love me. but its only to make up for how they treat me i follow them and cry behind. they tell me to stop im to old for that but inside im a young child hiding in a corner from their darkness always will return, but mostly in sadness for the warmth of my younger years. things are not so bad. I miss my youth. I miss my children. I miss my father. I love my wife. I love my childen. Ilove my Father and Mother. Candle burning smaller and smaller, little time. Less and less, time and patience... chains of love beginning familys are the root of all existance. unconditional love they loved you very, very much. Isä ja äiti. Isoisä ja isoäiti. Äidinisä ja Äidinäiti. siskot ja veljet. Äidin veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapsensa. Isän veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapsensa. Isoisän veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapset ja lapsenlapset. Isoäidin veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapset ja lastenlapset. Äidinisän veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapset ja lastenlapset. Äidinäidin veljet ja siskot ja heidän lapset ja lastenlapset. Koko joukko rakkaita tai vähemmän rakkaita ihmisiä. life get over it people for whom you have unconditional love for A stage of growth, not to be taken for granted. It can be dark but not always too dark for stepping. Youv'e got to have strength enough to believe. salvation seclusion seduction sanity senselessness safety shame i have no thoughts of my family that i wish to share. love I look into her eyes and see only pain I was brought to this place to help her But there is no helping those Those that are this far gone She tries to forget herself But the past won't let her I try Oh god, but I do try But she never stops crying I love her It's not enough Never is for her For her I taste her kiss She gives me nothing Nothing but lust I do not want this I want her to smile She can't So I cannot either if death to life then life to deth sky is limit visit my decay www.nohope_seth.homestead.com ass whippers who dont care. my sister ex ( thief come drug addict ) boyfriend voice i felt telling me that .Richard if your out there we never hated you to begin with , but as you behaved how you did you left us no choice i am a man and i always suck the male into me then get pissed off that it happened. hide from the female my maleness desire to be with them and do myself. my family relatives exist around me in a way were i can ignore them and look for connection to things that dont come i am a bit upset that it came to this and they did not teach me how to create any .... (i have not been taught by these peolpe how to say these things)((loving relationships which i think occur through the exchange of ideas thoughts feeling and a williningness not to move out of the relationship but remain within it to have points where people can place something on you and you know how to react to signify to them your intentions or feelings about a defined situation you both can be a part of . they obviously taught me how to do these things eg the above how to express in the relationship (the point of definition of a situation with a friend or more specifically a girlfriend ) others that is what i lack bla bla bla An image of society projected on to people to show the shallowness of life as we know it. fear Sure do miss my dad. It's over 9 months now that he's gone, and wouldn't it be cool if he could channel his spirit into the internet and wisit me on one of the bizarre websites I surf to. Don't know what to think of momma. She never calls...of course, I never call her either, but shouldn't one of us break down and start visiting? I mean she's not getting any younger, and though I hope she's blessed with more years than pawpaw was given,...that's all I want to say about it. What if sending my thoughts to this admittedly anonymous site would make one wish come true? I would wish for a relationship with my daughter. I want her in my life...In her absence I find myself not thinking about her on a daily basis, and that's something I thought I'd never do. Of course, my mind's on my son, He's the center of my world. And I guess I love the wife. Sometimes I don't know, and I admit we'd probably be better off apart, but I don't think that's what I want. Enough for you. family is what makes you a machine,...or a self image of them selves,...it is very hard to break away and when you do you become everything then never wanted bitch a starting place, where honesty can die in infant stages. The next stage is contagious. hell I love em' your past and your future we are one big family Something which gives you everything while taking it all away, making up which starts us out and ends us off. good memory is what you make it.........let's dance. home, heart, warmth, pain, love, good, memories, life obligational nonsense, but something that is there when nothing else is. = the burden of suffering that only blood can offer = psychological tearing of personal membrane, chronic bleeding of the soul for all that can be bled = a politic highly over-insisted upon by conservatives hi! i am webdesigner in korea disfunctional antiquity. support alas, my fater was no more. i walked limp, hobbling, for my support was now only air, a memory... >enter_cliche_here<>cliche><> We are a playmobil of our family three and thats what it will be .......not by my own desistion but a comprimize ..................still thinking of another ..maybe someday there will be a good mistake ...is there such a thing ....in this situation ....maybe... soul People who have driven me to the edge, for I can nolonger handle there nagging and expectations.......they will so have their justice and so will I.......... Anger and resentment. wishes to make things better and hopes that remain unfullfilled. escaping the everyday life was the last hope substance hey life is life maybe i love all of them asdc D F haha... I'm Korean... GoodBye.... blood is thicker than water sttttttuff smiles can take you miles, well you all know love is always a undertone for being patient. count to ten. only the past rrr333ttt pride I see you have a complex artist touch. To comprehend, for most is far too much. Some say it's simple, it could be fancier. I think it's perfect, but what is the answer? Past Present Future Without your family and friends you are empty home a start reliance enter thoughts happiness the backbone of your inner self the door??? nice dad, good way with words. someone you can count on... but be carefull...the knife in your back might be held by your brother always thinking on the words rigth before he spelled them even thougth the words are easily blown away by the wind,, but she was more important than anithing at that moment Those who bring you joy. Those which bring you joy. when it's good-support, love, and friendship...when it's bad-hell When you get locked with mind, relationship begins and the momentum for relationship grows deeper with compatability and mutual respect whether it is mother,father,husband,wife or girl friend humans chained to each other by an unbreakable bond Warm troubled seedlings growing with each ray of sun Falling with each storm Flowing with each breeze root all you've got family family sucks another world another life some good some bad this is the same. home---rebellion---superficial but essential it was very good,i'll send the link to my friend Very interesting Very Deep love connection Distribution of love hazard falling hapilly forever i don't want to remember safety spider webs in the light~we marvel in the darkness, we can not hear the ripping of thread... a hologram of a solid structure to lean on that will support you until the electricity goes out Hello how are you ime fiethanks Everything Everything family is but a grouping of people that leave you when death come...and yet I love them...they do nothing wrong and everything wrong at the same time I didn't get to thank you for going against the all to common conformest style of websight and making what you wanted to. This has been an exeptional experiance. again, what is this...and who was your father? a part of you death i hate my mother...and i have bo father. great world we live in. Mi familia siempre h sido "unida" por las desgracias de cada uno. Desde hace algún tiempo, sólo recibimos y hacemos llamadas los unos a los otros para decir cuán mal no va. Papá murió hace un año y... aunque mis recuerdos se pelean entre sí, mis hermanos y mi madre han decidido conservar lo mejor de él. A veces lo defendí estando en desacuerdo con él. A verces me acuerdo de él de la manera más triste y me siento mal... A veces siento que soy él mismo... buscando algo en qué cambiar lo malo que puedo ser. nothing Love them, but you dont have to like them. Love will keep you together! well bad nice unego That just made me completely stop in my tracks of the day. Thank you. this is so intersting.... warm safety What He is gone. What the fuck! You have some problems. its what we are ,a big family .but dont feel confortable and dont be to honest with them cause sometimes they are your worst enemies!!! O god, too much. The can of pee depleted me. There is so much more ugliness that the pleasant things seem trivial. Murder, suicide, divorce, alcoholiosm, drug addiction, child abuse, child neglect. It's all in the story of my family. in 1971, at the age of 12, (just three years after leaving the guy with the pee), I hitch-hiked to L.A. with an older kid, carrying a note from my mom that said, "My son Jim has permission to hitch-hike to California." The cops in Central Oregon stopped us. They didn't know Scott had a dime bag of speed in his sock. They laughed in amazement over the note, but on receiving confirmation by radio, shrugged their shoulders and let us go. When I turned 18, my mom said I could go to the Welfare Office and apply for public assistance in my own right. I want to know why this is happening. You have the answer here, and I want to know what it is. Something driving you to drive me insane. ... family just left my self out of my mind, and just ... un-dependable, it can go away at any time, with no warning Peoople that seem to come over often when I am a child but then forget as I change. They have become a myth that does nothing but bitch it's like a never ending pain seeing everything going down not being allowed to talk to your sister not being allowed to see your brother hoping your mom will stay loving you hoping your dad will love you deciding never to have your own family who you were Only the best for my family; looking to my past, remembering what was good, forcing this on my children, wanting the best for them, the best will come to them, everyone has good and bad, everyone has memories that are recalled as the best, it just won't be the same as the best is when I look at my past, knowing they will do the same to my grandchildren people that you trust your life and being with. Family is nt always those who share the same blood, but those who care or you, look out for you, who are there for you. death family the corruption of the soul institution lonliness Tears. So many tears. love, Joy sadness and pain, a billion tears in a bottle. all that is best about you and all that is worst about you surrounds you when you are with them "I like you better in the morning" "why, do you say that?" "because you haven't been drinking" whom you learn from chaos impossible to understand frustrating annoying at times strangely compelling a sense of belonging hell my mother, my sister my father, my brother + me = equals family.... Days out to the seaside, playing with my brother and sister in the rock pools... My mother and father holding hands walking on the sand.... people who, no matter what, you can't stop thinking about ylimaf the reason we have memories A thought can destroy you.. globus d'eter lligats al terra This is starting to mess with my head heart ache and strength... security and hatred.. unescapable future..hell asphyxiation Family is more than just mom and dad and aunt and uncle. Family are those who welcome you with open arms, and stand by you when in hard times. Most of my family are my friends. asdfasdf sometimes caring, yet broken apart by a sissor. the sun after rain_ the rain after sun_ the gun's starter i truly love them everything. priority. life. love. good. bad. "i have died and gone to hell. i know the power of ressurection. I cannot change my past, to better suit my dreams." i am the oldest son loving mother, loving father, a sister for the deepest hell. Me, them, none some people see family as the most signifigant thing in there life... they are usually refering to family related by blood such as a mother or father or sibling. I am now closer with my family than I have ever been. I love them quite a bit. But I think family and this love and conectedness alocated to "family members" should be extended to include the human race, or life in general, or possibly the most apropriately stated would be everything. For me personally I think of family and I think of father and I think of heavenly father. roots Always there every eye has a piece a random assortment of genes. other than the most biologically and genetically similar people on the planet you will ever meet , a unit structure that bears the incredible responsibility of nurturing and supporting all aspects of each member's life. some units are better off than other, but the idea remains the same and so does the terrible responsibility. support Sad. The Web Does not make me cry often. I felt words in this. EVERYBODY! everyone embodied into self . Closeness, comfort the greater joy of relaxation in the sun. Not alone. The people that you are always connected to . Those closest to me. Part of my tribe even without blood... Jaqueline Barbara Spike Patti Joseph Judith Sharika Where the walls come down. Unconditional love. where I come from people who you are stuck with for life....can be a good thing but usually isn't.... the genesis of every aspect of self The bonds that hold those we love together. the only place wherein the heart feels at home. though they may not be of the same tribe, they are undeniably kin. know your relative and you cannot deny your self. wow... beautiful a reign of blows. blood. a hand grenade. the genetic pool from which we crawl, on our way to learn to fly A father, mother, and their children, or any group of blood relations. Those who descend from one common progenitor; a tribe or a race; kindred; lineage An anchor. A reason for being. ylimaf, of course. poooot! ? orientation A SURVIVORS GUIDE UNTO INFINITY, IF THEY'RE NOT HYPOCRATES enter kitten hardship seed never never never never IM giving all tha I can handle. And for some reason, I am afraid of what I cant. My family is onw of these things. one sister, three step sisters, two step brothers, one mum, one dad, one step mum, one step dad, one grandma, two grandpas, three uncles, three aunts, one great aunt, four cousins, four foster mums, four foster dads, seven foster brothers, four foster sisters, one foster grandma ... and a cat. Those that you are willing to expose your' self to. No, I don't mean get physically naked. We all have barriers between our' self and others' selves. But when you are totally truthful like everyone is when they are young, you allow people to get close to you and know you better than many others. - Now that I have finished writing this I don't even know what I ment. we have two families... the people we're stuck with from birth... and the people we choose to surround ourselves with... mom and dad.... no A GROUP OF ENTITIES WHICH ARE THUSLY LINKED TO YOU What the hell is this? THis is quite serious. Goku dunno hurt and disapointment an anchor to release my inner feelings nothing ffff This is wierd and i don't understand it. obligation Heart Terv e rakieri fondness responsibility and so needed...funand pain and no choices shame misery desire incestviolence love heat stoked and food...swimming sinf=ging playing with each other hiding and sleeping and comfort...eating and laughter and tears...expectations andsorrows death longedfor missed and rememberd Nothing worth writing. memory what the hell are you talking about!I don't get a word you say.you people have no lives there for you will become nothing or do nothing with your lives.So just commit suicide and make the world a better place to be because we don't need you assholes screwing it up!!To finish my facts I condemn you to hell! no love and confusion, violence and hate, despair and hope, clinging to the end The family are my roots, they give me a hold and always have... The ones we gather around us when we need to feel that we are a part of something. alone in a world of indiffernce blood like kevlar Unkowing, Belonging, me, Them, others, who, why, Home, Warmth, Selfless, open. grandpa's eyes; the way they were always almost closed. same........... tenderness, care, change, rape, fear, abuse, hate lifes end! gone those who are always there for you when you need them to be. these people need not be related by blood or marriage ties, for these are the people who have chosen you, and those you have chosen. la gran ruptura, el gran reencuentro. LLeva años entenderlo. Hasta que no te reconcilias con su imagen estás perdido, tú eres ellos. a web of mixed messages security balle stability, trust in muddled waters of existence letdowns stability We have lost even this in America today...Family does not count, only the shareholders..... strength after a heartbreak i looked to my friend who said "the most important thing is to have a good family" My mother the only true friends you'll ever have we may be alone, but the others that bind us are the root for wich we are. boundaries temporary obligation to bonds that will inevitably be broken Thank you very much - a beautiful exhibit! happiness Last week I ran into my sister at a bar. Before that, I had coffee with her. Before that, she cried and said she missed me. Before that, we went to Norwich together. Before that, she didn't answer my calls. Before that, she cried and said she hated me. Before that, we both cried. Before that, she was struggling to run away. Before that, she was in juvenile detention centres. Before that, she was a junkie. Before that, she was dragged around the world by our mother. Before that, she was the "good" child. But I knew that made her the spoiled child. Before that she was the youngest. Before that we were inseperable. Before that I accidentally kicked her loose tooth out. Before that she opened her nose on the corner of a table and I nearly went out of my mind with worry. Before that she refused to learn to read. Before that I adored her almost as much as she adored me. Before that I was alone. None to recollect Being a part of a family is is birth. You are raised in hope you will enjoy life. Creating a family is rebirth. Attempting to increase your joy and to try and raise someone to not make your mistakes no words at dinner we ate our words no one ate dinner your my one and only people that piss me off while loving me people who understand and support whatever you can want. My support for all the weak things and my backbone in times of fear. dynmics of confusion refletions of the pain in your genes? Crapolla I am touched! soft ache in the core beneath taut flesh and brittle bone constant throbbing arterial dance home and away and home again me and pete fought alot growing up i still have no clue love A family is a like taking a real look back in time. Spending quality time together with your family has many rewards, with the usual minor mishaps. It can give you a chance to look back in time and see your heritage; a way to figure out who YOU are. Tucker MacDonald love me aginst the world forever relation of the same blood line or infact, a last name joined by marriage. whats done is done an aspiration of love that acknowledges iniquity my family shunned me. my friends are my family. a sense of who you are and where parts of your individuality came from people who you would do anything for and can't imagine yourself without them. nice monument to father and family nice monument to father and family hi did you ever thought........... We desire all the life an happy family but everymoment we shun psycoapolide death. Nurturance, deep safe haven. Those you would die for I love them. Can they be people and parents? without you i am nothing. warm. is the only thing. and everything. trust, denial, love, memories, differences, i dont know who you are... i dont really want to know... i dont know if you made this for yourself or others...but whomever you happen to be if you ever read this, thankyou... thanx for what you have made people think about and have them reflect upon themselves and thank you (for the most selfish reason) so that i could reflect upon me... again, very moving They just don't understand. They think I have no feelings. I have feelings. But when I share my feelings with them, they mock them. I don't say much to them anymore. So they think I have no feelings A thorn in my side that sprouts the most beautiful rose love breathtaking small family. love. The others that are related. The related that are outside. the reason behind the dripping sink, the end of confusion when we find out that the truth was carrying a lie on it's back, maybe not such a bad idea. The small things. the tooth paste in the sink, the water left dripping, the socks in the hall, the petty annoyances that make life odd. Hopefully You do get back all the good things You do put in your family. Love, respect,etc. love, hate, bittersweet love, support, friendship Foundation the family is living on borrowed time. In life all the things You go thru makes You stronger. Incredible site, thank you for the invitation to veiw it. I look forward to seeing more. Its all you got baby and you aint nothin w/o it they love you through thick and thin now hear me out, and its not only blood its the way you live and act through life, they raised you and made you stronger from that. LEARN & LIVE -jen Its all you got baby and you aint nothin w/o it they love you through thick and thin now hear me out, and its not only blood its the way you live and ct through life, they raised you and made you stronger from that. LEARN & LIVE -jen at times a frustrating rock or wall that can become the only important foundation in life...if one siezes the precious moments. THIS IS ALL INTRUIGINGLY BIZARE! THE ART WORK IS VERY WELL PUT TOGETHER THE LITTLE THERE IS! WHO'S EVER FAMILY THIS IS, I FEEL FOR THAT PERSON,I MAY NOT NO WHAT BUT I FEEL SOMETHING. JEW, I AMAGINE FROM THE WRITTING AND TALK OF THE DANUBE AND SUCH. AUSTRIA IS A MORE ENJOYABLE COUNTRY THAT GERMANY. ANYWAY WHAT AM I ON ABOUT. GOOD DAY. the audience of your wedding. your timeline. your genes. modifiers of your fate. the ones who you cry for at their funeral. the ones who cry at your funeral. the ones who don't care where you live and continue to visit you. a part of your search for reality. ?s on reality can be asked at coldninja@yahoo.com a false concept of basic society. God's creation reflects his heart sacrifice this web page is the dumbest thing since jerry lewis. FIRE your webmaster love no family??? virus virus virus virus blood ties, bones,blood friends people who would always stand by you in the end Those who i can be what i truly am around and see me for what I am even when i am acting as if i am not a rose garden fragile against the screaming bullets The sacrifices my parents have made are without equal in my life. What I find worth smiling about. disfunctional appears to be more like meth! You have problems maybe.....crack cocaine is bad ya know Those to whom you will always owe an unpayable debt. thanksgiving. those whose physical ties are surpassed only by their wilingness to love and support as long as they shall live comfort Christmas(Hannukah, Kwanzaa, Ramadan) dinner -togetherness a crutch that bends but doesn't break DUAL A union of people that always love eachother althought they may not always like eachother, Those you would give your life for and those who would do the same for you, all the happinees and joy, the sorrow and the pain. But in the end the are the ones who will attend your funeral... without them i am nothing..... true connections The last time love was said and meant. And even then... seperation The ones i care for and would die for the arrangement of souls you keep comfort people who should always be there for you, but due to human nature won't always be. El pilar fundamental de toda sociedad y de todo ser... bajs beautiful STory CREates MAny DISturBING FEELINGS I'm still trying to find out strength love, roots, future, heat, heart, support a holy but crucified memory - sic! (bull-dog@gmx.de) life begins and life ends Oh I see now, I must appoligise I didn't read the side caption. Why my family, Twisted ,bitter and probably slightly insane, well enough of that I grow tired. (i have a feeling like i am doing something very importnant) family is all you have....they say.....you brother is all you have....he has you and you have him...he is bad, he is drinking (etc.) but he is still your family i mis my family...there is nobady to go to for a cup of thee...there are frends...after some time they become your family.... my mother is my family.....my brother and my father.... in the first instant...mad and screaming choking on my own placenta....she smiled at me....I was quiet. distract ion part it, shun behind my words all comb ine ink some... time, there is a pun. remember… and none. . . com dis pute my validity„ hereditary insubordination lack coordination there four score = shunned! twisted inside i try and hide my humor. LAUGH --Random_Precision aka potmos (meaning destiny) a @ t hot mail . (pronounce DOT) i think that maybe crying is just a good way to say it or else lying on something soft and the moaning could be a good indication. . back here. does this go anywhere? im' home alone and secretly want to shuffle through my roomates things. . evidence for some thing something. it;s delightful its delicious its delovely. Watching a movie with Grand father half way through the movie he tells me he is not feeling well and minds if he leaves. I leave ten minutes later due to boredom of being alone only to see him get on the same bus as me with a bottle in his hands Homebase extensions of the self attached with silly string held in place by boulders constituted of polystyrene smiling, laughing even, with corners turned down a pillow large enough to soak up a bed pan of tears opportunity to live or waste genetic evolution is what we have no choice for This is some crazy shit! Immortality champions of your cause several generations from now remembering what you came from remembering who you were.......Immortality.. child of insecurity Immortality payment for existence pastel words on charcoal paper... Loved ones, some cause to continue. The ones most bound to you and the ones most likely to stick with you later in life. spinning wheels some with teeth shiny small big metal prison CENTER ((1+1)+A)X(B+(1+1)) small droplets. us and them Anchor, weight that drags you down and keeps you where you are. Foundation, supporting you in all that you do. Pain. Love. -G self i love and hate them My sister, my brother, my father, my mother, my nephews, my cousins... those who are tied to me by blood, and those who are tied to me by love. Some of them I do not always like, but I always love them. It is an all-too-human failing... One of our greatest strengths. One of our greatest weaknesses. Silent Wolf dreams family is the memory... the memory is existence... while we exist... every breath we take is getting us closer and closer to death... then eventually we are forgotten so what then of existence? annoying needed My best friends love The voices spilling around me had no place, a simple essence, surrounding me to create the walls i call home. My brother is not dead, but morbidness reaks from his room.......this is my way of getting high..... restructured memory uujhhu "family is always the reference" pain. love. fear. fate... dna. conclusion = alchohol the lonelyness is everywhere Inspiration. universe loving past future. world I like chocolate. god... this is so difficult. I´m crying. Magela love warmth fortitude i carry in my cells the imprints of my ancestors the people that never leave. I'm so sad for this family Blood is blood - no matter what being in love with anyone else except yourself. Family teaches you to entertain feeling, a sense of belonging, and the sensation of never feeling alone in the world. Family equals love and devotion, kindness and frivoloty, anger and frustration...the flame that never dies time after time. The oceans of eternity flow within your veins...that eternal love that you cannot fixate with anyone else sadness, longing, pain...Jack you fool you missed so much, so much family:OUR children...THEIR children you missed seeing yourself alive in them..at the age of fifty almost thirty years later I can forgive you. Soon I will write our story. Ruth still evades me thirty years after her death. They are all dead now. I am learning to love my life. life blood connection with history Those around you that allow you to hang your ugliest hat anywhere you wish and love you for it. IS THE CORE OF OUR EVOLUTION TO THE NEXT GREAT STAGE IN HUMANITY... REPAIR THE FAMILY AND THE FAMILY GROWS..AS THE FAMILY GROWS MANKIND GROWS WITH IT..AS MANKINDS FAMILY GROWS OUR COMMON BOND BECOMES MORE AND MORE APPARENT.. OUR HUMANITY... AND THE EVOLUTION OF MAN CARRIES ON. DF SCHULTZ KOKOPELLIE@HOTMAIL.COM 09/11/99 love and respect and really good food with unconditional love thare can be no loss to great to move on. a guaranteed turkey dinner on the third thursday of November. Ahhh, family. A brother half my age and a sister whom I could have been expected to have as my own daughter...if she hadent been her father's and my sepmother's daughter. Yes we are all very American! family isn't really people you're related to. it's the people you can relate to. new creation of one's self and combination of two individuals identity dreams the reason. belonging. love them, hate what they do. when your parents die, and you can't have children, you suddenly become an insignificant blip on the time line. that's when you realize the real meaning of family. confusion father shared genes love, laughter, life, heart, foundation to know...to be warm past, memory Not Applicable. Very. Helping and sharing life. everything your first lessons in life which you either choose to believe, blindly or which you choose to dissect, reevaluate and construct into oneself your first lessons in life which you either choose to believe, blindly or which you choose to dissect, reevaluate and construct into oneself happiness in slavery ah. wakaru. family? family are the people you choose, who choose you. family are rarely those who are burdened with you by blood; but if they are luck is wit you...you will never be lonely. bits of yourself that go away. unchosen people you become accustomed to safety to grow and love God given. he said to me i never thought you would be the daughter i wished i had never had. i said fine. i slammed doors for years. i miss him now. when i was young i used to be so ecstatic when he came home. it was a treat to talk to daddy. when i was little, i was cute or something, tolerable i was able to get away with all of what i wish i could now. will we ever recover? maybe. i doubt i will ever be able to call another man daddy. what you came from...who interesting surreal surreal who is my family and who do i belong with? the last time i check my birthmark reminded me of some island float ing somewhere in the pacific ocean swarming with sharks. i can remember my family in the past life when i was young and naive. you choose them........they are the ones that love you when you love them that which has a special status and privledge in my mind. that which reaches beyond all of my defenses and into what i consider to be the core of my world. home. liz. mom. dad. cookie. but that's what family is to me in the traditional meaning of 'family.' as far as what i consider to have an important part in my world, (which includes my loved ones listed above), my 'family' is always in flux and mutates constantly. very hard to define. love? What color were the triangles? Yellow, or mixed? basic needs Family is made up of those people in our lives who are always there some one to care and for us to care for. love never ends Never chosen/biologically supported love hate love fear confussion anger wastings of time and of energy on some who are worth it and some who are not thank god for the big and small wisdoms. god save us from the fates inflicted on us with the ill ones their homilies are residual too....an indelible architecture of the self that was formed from their flesh and bones love roots confines bed home for always reliable yet incomprehensible dependable he left me when i was five. he would not stay dead. going and comming living and dieing. after tewnty years i didnt notice. after fourty years it did not matter. after fifty years he is dieing. he is leaving me again... I think back to my child family. There was no family, just my mother and my sister and a brown dog named Brownie. He liked me and my sister. this is me? shit my mom did everything my dad told her to.. she was like a prisioner.. i always used to ask her if they were going to divorce, and id sit in my closet and cry about it and listen to them scream, and i never knew what i did wrong.... fornethy@hotmail.com family..... family...... joyful.... painful.... union..... neverending, repititious, slaughter of child's mind, child's soul....... ever widening, ever lifting of child's mind, child's soul.....why are the man and woman not reconciled.... why do they not agree on the point..... the focus..... forever torn.... between....... dark..... and....... light. Goodbye man, hush hush woman......... who is child? ...everything. I don't know that word. I don't know that word. permanent friends/enemies experience advisors chosen friends A tree of which I am a branch. those who you allow to be those who you allow to bf my reminder that I am alive and all that has occured in my life has not eradicated that conception of family. broken yet new. the social order created during copulation and reproduction i have no choice i must accept them life Strong men lead nations cohesion the load you bear. thoughts ? lucky days something family what You are a lucky man. suspect blood lines forever family is something you always carry with you. scattered seeds in a Midwest frozen landscape cornerstone enstranged. beautiful. ugly. annoying. better then none. No my father never molested me or burnt me with cigerettes but he sure is a goon. my mother never protected me or said she loved me. Grandparents rule. Only one left alive. warm the ones you choose b4 you begin life....and support no matter what. Confusing emotions what you start with.. the people you love the most but like the least Please tell me more. I am wrapped in your words like a blanket on a chilly winters day. Your words consist of a palpable strength that gives me courage... my partner circled in bound by birth connected through thought and skin shared tunnels gradual estrangement want one The memory of your former self, the hope for the future, a distinct thread in the fabric of time... where you can always turn to them when you are in need children wow brothers and sisters my family are my every thing and i am forever tryiny to please them, if it wasnt for that i would be a nasty person by now is a random community that, for better or worse, you a lifetime member fuel for development Love,Warmth,Security,Care,Distance,Pain not right damaged damaging lonely Dickens & Kafka Love support stability blood the one thing that matters. walk m ehom e those we can never stop running away from or home to it is all the good things i hold in my heart until the time i can pass it on to the next one to guard for the future. Always connected. Confusing. for me... family is self, in endless battle with self, internal and external, a struggle, a richness, much pain, much hidden, still. insanity Family fills you with selfishness lessons a feeling of self-confidence towards the concept of home. Being able to build that yourself. inevitable Love and companionship when all else seems to be lost. Genesis. An odd grouping of miracle whip on wonder bread. Nothing too distinguishing except perhaps the personifacation of a bunch of C R A C K E R S. culture from within hi! us the waters that carry us to our destination. May contain some rapids, may make us sick at times, but it also propels us forward Those you care about enough to lay down your life for them... bonds for life, support, teachers of unconditional love Family = friends, life, happiness, safety, future present and past we do not choose to whom we are born... touching Love, freely given, but not demanded. love a sense of security, love and knowledge. Always having a answer to a question, even if no answer is possible. A place you can always turn I have to go pee. always on the edge of becoming nothing.... almost homeless, almost smart, almost happy, almost working, almost understanding......... ENSLAVEMENT Regression into the plane of anothers,mind,race,ethninticity,faith and beliefs is as endless as the starry skies and is just as touching and beautiful,perhaps a giant spiderweb,intracatley woven,with pewter dew resting upon its silkin strings.Like you there is no other. Raven M. Darklord love of them is in the mind and heart. thus i do feel that they are with me. always wanting to give more and more. thinking they can buy my heart, WRONG! that is a symbol to die for. death is a worl meaning darkness i consider you to be dark and life to be dark. the biggest adventure in life is death. familly is foreever even through death. you may think i only talk about death well thats because i am dead! do you feel pain? i dont! those who you are most familiar with. those who are always there to help when you need them. and sometimes strangers become family. do you personally know everyone in your tree? the un-chosen Those we hold so close to our hearts that through them we find the strength to tell genetics to go fuck itself. The people you depend upon, and you depend on you, despite anything. those you are tied to, by genetics, by blood, by love, or by belief. family is a bond ubreakable, but the one that needs breaking the most security in the shape of figures A Minor Chord shattered.. but unbroken. despite the fracture, it broke clean. a clean shatter.. some parts will never go together again, but most of it still fits. those you care about family sucks love memories not blood but those who will accept the responsibility to cradle you in your darkess hour beautiful huh? your people curtains to the world who needs to write epic novels when you can do this... what is life what is love what is family "that girl is a groupie," my mother said. I didn't know what a groupie was althought I had heard of them. "what do you mean?" I asked. "She wants to sleep with him," she replied. I want to sleep with him too, I thought, I must be a groupie. thoughts maelstrom, destroyer of that which has gone before in deference to that which is yet to come people who are there for you, blood ties dosent neccisarily have anything to do with it... just because they had you dosent mean they care...they might...or not...so be with the ones who do... right arms "family is the only reliable source" Nate extinct as a meaningful symbol, thriving as a social commentary, and poisoned as a political tool extinct as a meaningful symbol, thriving as a social commentary, and poisoned as a political tool a place where you don't need a smile as a disguise can't choose em', gotta love em... Elders know through experience... most of the time. Listen to their advice... clark values those for whom you care very much I like anchor the best-it makes me happy:o) My family is whom I love wether we have blood ties or not. I love forever and will remain faithfull to these people for life. I do not choose where my love falls it just does, which complicates my family at times. But I remain steadfastly devoted to my family. Family is those you care about the most, blood or no, they are your clan, your tribe. tragic Interesting. Invariable, beautiful. family Blood heritage hate love Can't live with out ... love ! those who mean a lot to you, whether related to you or not. your best friends, your lovers, and so on. a dept i can never pay=something i am ashamed of, to myself There is nothing to say here except that family always lies and in the end you are so left alone. stupid That which makes the memories i WANT TO DIE BUT NOT IN A LITERAL SENSE, TRANSFORM MYSELF INTO SOME ONE ELSE confusion expectation pride pack circle remembrance blood I've never met my father-I wish that I had,even though I never met him I miss him. memory betrayal The abundance found in pride. The avenue of want dead-ended on the street of need. To be found there, a man directing traffic even though his hand is awfully cold. Even though the bitter wind is causing him to surrender to a convulsion of shivers. His badge is the stereotype of the patriarch And the whore on the corner, whose long-lashed eyes beckon you out from behind the dumpster, she has taken on many roles, far too oftimes that of the mother. And the others. All those who blindly walk this route from the here to the there... call them your brothers, your sisters. With whom you share your home. With whom you share your bed. Looking at them sleeping in the early morning, makes me imagine what dreams flow thru their minds. When I´m gone, could I get into them or we´re gonna meet later? roots love enter nuclear it returns to that holy trinity the triangle while supposedly being the strongest of geometry one generation into that supposition\we see where fractures occur along the longest line and breakage is inevitable and irrevocable and isosceles becomes isolated until the line drawn is only a point. but my mom smells like tea rose and I love her very much warmth/ physicality/ an apple/ loud/ ignorant/ / existant/ the only people that give a shit tied down hmmm, the jury is still out on that one ce qui donne une base pour la vie, et à la fois ce dont tu dois sortir et distancier pour te rendre responsable et t'épanouir... Families can be forever If in our heart we are pure Let loose the hurt and hatred of the past Let LOVE heal your paine, so long ago past Love Comfort in time of trouble Someone who is always there for you ..i miss my father.. my hand fitted onto his palm... he held me strong... he sang me quiet... he laughed with me to fits of giggles... Love, Life, togetherness your first connection to the world do we get the familiy we deserve? or do we deserve the family we get? i don't quite know which the people who dictate my personality at home hate alone I don't know strong ties, thoughts of better times, words of wisdom...to live by....to keep them alive. snicker hold smell bequeath touch remember does exist or just an illusion loss alcholism IS. the subtance of what you are and.. What you become. Becoming is the hardest and most difficult task that any child can undertake .. and yet,beconing is proof of family and proof of being. done it again speachless dear departed loved ones far far away EVERYTHING Family are people with you forever love, support, friendship, everything induviduals related or very close in friendship unknown never without them Emptiness everything death The Bringers of life, Life(TM), Death, Death-And-Taxes. loneless. a frozen red-yellow cherry in the old big pot.... strawberry with sugar..... my dad and my mom at the same table.... yeah, old memories.... lost in past.... Dysfunction. Overbearing. Overcompensation. Infidelity. Mental illness. unity love support ...familiar thoughts... something somepeople never feel that they are a part of. The joy the comes from knowing that which is familiar, like an old pair of socks. They may be ugly, but, they keep your feet warm. sex My family is always energetic! somthing that you can't hide from him associated self hmmm warm... anxiety... leave.... friend... comfort. chasing the horizon clenched-teeth grin with tears tangled A sustanance for the soul and insanity for the mind. foundation we grow, we forgive , we carry on. Our familes are not perfect nor are we , so don't sweat the small stuff. Why wallow in our families inperfections, love and accept and forget it , does it really matter? Remember life is not a dress rehersal. a load of loving, pretending shit ghosts The people who help you over come need to feel something, but dont gdhghgdh the glue that holds me together when I'm almost falling apart. a living, breathing, entity of breath and life original mold. Unconditional Love, comfort, support. A hand to lead you out of the dark. A husband, a father, a wife, a mother a daughter, a sister, a son, a brother.... And we are all friends those for whom one would give one's life the crust of the years spreads into my thoughts thantis salvation...true joy is family. My mother and brother are extensions of myself. Without them I would be nothing. i am love...kindness is preferred usually but those suffering from negative feelings need to be given nurturing so they will heal. i was healed. i am open to love. i have noone but i am open to love. family to me will be those that i am there for as their right arm. my blood family stinks-i guess they do not understand how to be kind. we have to learn how to be kind...or want to be..when i tried to show them my caring they pushed me away-could it have anything to do with the money left by my deceased father? they took the money and cut all ties with me. i was too shocked for 10 years to face it. now i am over it and have moved on. they got the money.. illegally.. yes.. but i did not have it in me to sue my mother. i wanted to think she loved me. now i see the truth... money is her love.her daughter was a nuissance. it does not bother me like you may think. i suffered too much for 10 years- now i am 30 and i want to have my own family. but i'll always wnder what it would be like to have..a mother. father, you taught me. how? by example, by being kind, by caring. the suffering you did at the hand of mother, of sister, i wish i could take it from you, to relieve you of the pain. they were...the nastiest...sneaky..betraying..what can you call such damaged people. some defect to make them steal, hurt and betray thier own blood. i have dicovered you mother, and i have recovered! my father was at the mountian the first day of the eruption, and he still came home slipping unhappily away from the safety of childhood finding happiness again in keeping my child safe lOvE and All that we LOVe IncludiNg PeteY my dog. aLso all mankind as created by GoD the father. aNd eVerY homelesS person passed on the street to whom we should pause and greet and warm and feed and make eYE Contact with. and every stranger that becomes famaliar and aLL PEOplE everywhere! It is GrOoVy hOw All Of Us ARe OnE biG FAMILY!!!!!!! caring Stability. The people who affect your life the most, they mold you, they build you up from molecules into something worthwile. a featherbed of nails is my memory kjflkjf love, care, selflessness the source of who you are. she took all our lives in the carbon monoxide vehicle and I have felt wonderful ever sense < every sence > Your heart and soul. Your refuge, and love. I can think of society and abstractly wish them well, but my family I can do for. I can make d difference. I'm important to their wellbeing. I have a place in this world - with my family. They are there for me. Because I'm here. I'm there for them, because they are there. the structure to break i understand heart The teachers woh taught me through their pain how to pave my own way and remain in tact all the while no matter the obstacles in my path. Thanks to them I know I will survive anyything. the people who made me, but ultimately killed me. baking bread, words, smell of turpentine and hot metal, janis joplin and thelonious monk, wine, and food and whiskey and conversation .... mmm....my family...a united family even if geographically apart..yes. When everything else fails... share family a bunch of people who have no choice but to deal with each other's crap unto death do they part but it means something different for other people I am sure. This is but my humble opinion. Family is good, but not to much.. my death trap...the one I try to brake away from, yet love them all the same. comfort What life is meant to be. It could be heaven or hell. It's just what you make it! Grandma and Grandpa, as children of wealthy,opium addicted landowners, they grew up in a world filled with all the privileges and graces associated with being aristocrats. As adults they became the enemies of the Cultural Revolution, and the victims of the Japanese invasion.Their life as parents of seven children was filled with all the pains and sorrows associated with proverty stricken victims of war.All had been lost. Yet my father and his siblings were raised with a special kindness, and human grace associated with people who has so much love in their soul that all the pains and sufferings in their life turns into a queit, all embracing wisdom of life itself.......(To my Grandparents Bo & Bing) diasappointment people who are there for you irregardless and those who love you without condition and those who does not see though their own eyes but through yours... the people who have to take you in. disnointedreconstructionsomehow i can now hear the word without a return to the absence balancing extremes Your story would be a great movie that shows the real effects of socialisim/communism/thugism. Hollywood tends to glamourize life and the brutality in countries where this happens.The perpatrators of such societies are romanticized as villians yet should be protrayed as the ultimate evil scum. Parallels should be drawn between these demons and the politicians who desire to move us towards this socialist society. pillars not until I looked into my sons eyes did I know the true joy in living.sharing, loving, laughing to experience the innocents of a child yet unmolded by time or memory. like an empty glass waiting to be filled. I cherish this moment not wanting to disturb or influence him in any way other than to share in the beauty of the moment... mojo quinto home It seems that you've been given the gift of love. I'm glad for you. soul molder lifeboat occupants a collection of bungie cords wrapped around my heart incredible thing. The evening train passes, carry the comuters to their homes. brothers and sisters linked by blood and bonds thicker than blood that which is unknown living thoughts[babaji@buddhist.com] unconditionality, support, comfort, love. is. the line cast. the ray projected. the surviving. family foundation hi dad responsibility, closeness, supporting, people to share kindness with and enjoy high points. really all you've got love, to be sure. But not simple. very interesting... you are an artist and poet... what other medium do you work in? Cohenesque??? ..which one? did you write all the material or are some quotes from others? why do you include hungarian words here and there? are you 1st, 2nd or 3rd generation? I assume my e-mail address is being assimilated in this form somehow...reply if you like...Judy for how long do you have to live your memories heartfelt ahanyan annyifele IMPORTANT cirle of life a lot of shit The people that you are always connected to . Those closest to me. Part of my tribe even without blood... Jaqueline Barbara Spike Patti Joseph Judith Sharika Where the walls come down. Unconditional love. where I come from people who you are stuck with for life....can be a good thing but usually isn't.... the genesis of every aspect of self The bonds that hold those we love together. the only place wherein the heart feels at home. though they may not be of the same tribe, they are undeniably kin. know your relative and you cannot deny your self. wow... beautiful a reign of blows. blood. a hand grenade. the genetic pool from which we crawl, on our way to learn to fly A father, mother, and their children, or any group of blood relations. Those who descend from one common progenitor; a tribe or a race; kindred; lineage An anchor. A reason for being.